HI Lisa Michelle,

I have been in treatment at an eating disorders clinic for two years now. At first there was indeed a lot of emphasis on eating and attaining a certain BMI. The fact of the matter is that in order to handle dealing with emotional stuff, our bodies have to be healthy and working properly. It takes a lot of energy just to tolerate certain feelings in my experience. I know it is hard to be open to others' direction when it comes to eating. I hope you will be able to discuss this with your new therapist. If she specializes in eating disorders she will surely know that you will struggle with relinquishing any kind of control. She will also hopefully know that as your eating and weight normalize and you are no longer using eating disorder behaviours to cope, the underlying issues will present themselves as a natural course of events, and be there to help you deal with them. I guess it is a matter of first things first.
I think it is awesome and very courageous of you to have already begun to make the changes you need to. I hope you will try to keep an open mind about therapy and see how it goes. I am pretty sure you will find that your new therapist really wants to help.

Good luck