My father was 95 years old and led a happy, full life. He'd been feeling miserable, emotionally and physically for the last 6 or 7 weeks. He had dementia among other problems, and deteriorated pretty quickly. I find that I'm more relieved than sad, though I was sad when he was in so much pain, and when he didn't communicate much anymore. I wonder if I will regret not grieving so much because of the circumstances. When my Mom died years ago, I didn't grieve, and I suffered a lot because of that. But this is different because of my Dad's age.
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