Yeah I can relate Heid...on a business level Im usually ok with it...very confident in my abilities. On a personal level...well its practically non existant.
"Eyes are the windows to the soul. I don't want anyone to really see what I have become. I don't want them to see the hurt inside. I don't want them to see I am damaged. That there isn't so much in there to give anymore. "
Yes...they are windows to the soul...I do disagree on one point you made there though heid...I think you DO have as much to give...as do I...but maybe we are both just afraid to give it or make it as available now?
I'm amazed what a big issue it has become in my life. Ive always had it...and it wasnt until really serious relationships it became an issue. What the other person doesnt realize thoguh, is that it probably hurts me as much, if not more, than it hurts them. But its so hard to talk about or explain. I've tried to force myslef to do it. even if only for moments at a time. But this goes unnoticed usually and makes it that much harder because it isnt acknowledged. Frustrating.