hi kate, welcome to PC

I'm glad that you've made progress with your depression, that's GREAT to hear!!! When I started feeling better, I also became afraid of the depression coming back, but my counsellor told me that even if it did, I was now equipped to recognize the symptoms before I hit rock bottom, so I could get to work on stabilizing my mood straight away. It is very scary when the depression starts to creep up on you, but it's good that you recognize it for what it is. You know what works now, be it meds or therapy or taking some time off, so be sure to get yourself back into whatever worked for you before. Now at least you know from first-hand experience that this doesn't have to be a permanent thing.