hey thankyou all! im good at the moment; like really good! i ahvent done anything stupid for at least a week and i had such a good day today! got a dance/party thing tonight and im getting all dressed up for it so that'll be fun-but im gonna have to wear a long-sleeved bolero type thing because nobody has seen my arm for about two months. problem is if i get very drunk, i may not care if it's seen. which could go both ways; i think secretly i really want it to be noticed so that i can get the acknowledgment that i need for help...i dunno; we'll see! thankyou again for your replies! xxxxxxxxxx