Wow, I wish I had advice for you but Im not sure what to say except the good news is that your conscience is speaking to you loud and clear. Are you sure that you aren't feeling guilty for only wanting to be with beautiful women because society looks down on shallow people? I'm not calling you shallow but most people think that others who focus on looks are shallow. OR do you think you feel guilty about this because you were taught differently? Just some ideas to ponder. Good luck!