Hello all,

I'm going to make this short and sweet even though it's really long and complicated. Excuse me if I sound bitter and I apologize in advance. I'm a little disenchanted. Here goes, I'm newly engaged and instead of being excited about planning the wedding (like most women)....I'm miserable! I've narrowed it down to the following reasons:

1- I hate wasting $$$$. I'd rather pay my taxes and buy furniture.
2- I feel left out because my father will not be giving me away (I have nobody to do this and I feel ashamed)
3- I'm 150% AGAINST a bachelor party. This is a dealbreaker. Luckily, he agreed not to have one and I won't be having a bachelorette party either.
4- I feel guilty for asking my female friends to fork over $$$ to buy a dress they will only wear once. Plus I don't want to be hassled about not having a bachelorette party.
5- I feel too ugly/old/fat to be a bride. Brides are supposed to be young and look like beautiful angels. I don't so.... what's the point of pretending?

My fiance is really upset that I feel this way but he just doesn't understand. I don't know what to do.