So I just started Divalproex. my doc told me it's a bit of a mood stabilizer and that it's drowsy so it will help me sleep.
I have been sooo blah lately and not sleeping well and when i upped my anti-depressants (effexor) i wasn't seeing much improvement.
so i started this.

well it's not really helping me sleep all that much, which i what i really want. a normal sleep cycle. but mostly i feel baffled. mood stabilizer. my ups have barely been up. it's not like i'm feeling the sense of immortality or that i'm being rash or carefree and just uber pumped on life. my ups are that i feel normal. so why the mood stabilizer? i'm worried that it'll stabilize me at blah.

also, i was reading into mania and bi-polar and all that (my aunt has been treated for bi-polar) to learn more about it. and then i came across this ooookay. so i do that, when i am feeling like my normal self. i'm a musical theater kid. so am i to think that i'm not like that normally but rather that what i used to think of as my personality is actually a manic cycle??? how do u tell the difference??

i feel like my quest for sleep is going off track. i don't want to get swallowed in a sea of medication and wrong diagnosis just to help me sleep. i'm so confused. what do i do???