i feel terrible today. i recently gave up alchol, drugs, smoking, and sex at all once because one of my friends asked me to be his girlfriend. i didn it mostly for him, but in turn its going to help me and i know it. i used to cut all the time, i have ragged scars on my legs and the inside of my elbows. i cut for the pain, not because i wanted to kill myslef, i felt like i deserved to be punished because of hte things that i had done and caused... i always feel worthless, like i am never good enough.
i stopped cutitng a little while back but i just replaced it with sex. i had sex with guys years older than me... that wouldnt be a big problem but i am only 17 years old right now. ive slept with five different men in the last three years, the oldest was a 26 year old. i was only 16.
i know some people are going to look at this and think that im just another teenage sob story because thats what most peopl think when they hear my story. they say thats its not anything that any pther teenage girl has to go through... but i cant handle it. i cant handle all the stress and its killing me... i just started on here so im sorry if i kinda took away some help from you katileena, but i also wanted to let u know that i know what your going through somewhat. though it may not be much coming from some sick teen out there... i know