Thank you all..I know its hard to believe I try and when my days are good I feel I can say in my head and even out loud I know I am a good person,deserve someone great who will treat me like I treat others ..then I fall apart again because I think deep down I don't believe it...what makes it difficult about a month after meeting him I had an accident that left me disabled so my life changed all around and can't go back to things I did before ....so in that I have to also blame myself for ultimately building my world around him he was all I had ...so when he left ...my world crumbled...
I haven't any family through the years my friends all moved out of state and my boys are all over 18 now ,my youngest was barely 9 when we first met..