I am also alone......even though I have 6 eskie dogs, I am alone when it comes to having human contact.
I find that alone in some ways is better for me though....for alone, I HAVE TO BE RESPONSIBLE for my health.....there is no one to care or to bother or to take care of me if I get too weak to take care of myself like has happened in the past.
It sort of makes me realize that I want to take care of me for ME (& for my dogs).....but I don't like that weak shakey feeling that hits & it's even more scary when it hits & I am alone.
It makes me realize that I really do care about myself & what happens to me.
Some parts of being alone are the best thing that has ever happened to me.....while the quiet is defining, it is a pleasant relief from the past experiences.
Hope someday you will find that your alone will be your peace.

Debbie