Sending you safe hugs. And hugs and lollipops for the littles who would like one. Bless your heart. Man... people deserve to be treated better than that. Stay sane and stay safe inside your system. It is not going to be easy for you. But you can make it through. Draw on those internal resources. And consider seriously that it may not have anything at all to do with you. It might be the doc did not know how to deal with DID and could have gotten into trouble by a supervisor of some sort for being in over her head. That DOES happen. But they are usually too embarised to admit it. Patients end up thinking it is their fault when nothing could be further from the truth!!!