Like others have said, T's do not usually call if you don't show up for appointments. It doesn't mean they don't care, but they want you to make your own choices. I was talking to my group T about how people generally end treatment there. I am terrified at my impending departure from my group program, and wanted to know how others do it. She said some people have a specific date to terminate, and some just stop coming with no explanation. I was shocked that some just abruptly stop without saying any goodbyes or without closure. She said I'd be surprised how many people do that, it seems they cannot tolerate the process of saying goodbye and just stop showing up. It sounds like you did that with your T. I see it as a way to have some control over what is painfully out of your control. I feel your pain, my T will only see me for another year. I'm glad that I will have a year to work through it and get used to the idea. It's hard though. And I have been very tempted to just quit my group program because it is very difficult for me to let go. Please take care of yourself. If you need to, call your T and tell her that you are having difficulty. Maybe ask her to refer you to someone else who can help you work through this if you cannot see your current T after December.