Hi Kacey,

This kind of trauma can make geting out there a bit harder . I have cancer and each day I see why a man would run if I breathed the word.

It was just one more brick on the wall I was working on tearing down . I had hopes . Its just one more glacier to climb . And I don't know if I have any more crampons. left to strap on.

I feel like fortunes fool .

A gratitude list helps .

I agree you must get away from this man or everyday he wil tear your soul to pieces. No man should be bedding another woman while still married.

I've have never been married and I know nothing about the ins and outs of divorse . Or who says no or yes and what that means.

I think you do need to take care of yourself finacially . get a good lawyer and soon ,

The worst thing to do is to cling to someone who gives you double messages .

You don't want someone to feel sorry for you .

I just hope you are being taken care of finacially / If staying married does that for you...

work very hard to maintain little contact and do something each day to build you life up more.

I keep sticking my finger in doors that keep slaming . Its a wonder I can move my fingers .

I do not have a house or a boy friend or family. they are deseaced. I never had a husband

I just hope I can keep working . and right now its very hard .

i want to give up many days.

think of a way to limit your contact.
I came up with something to day that was creative

I do not own a cell phone.
I have land line with no long distance provider

I use a calling card for long distance

I have a PO box thats only open nine to five and closed on the week ends.

Its about five miles from home.

so I mailed my two calling cards to my po box

so It will be very hard to make that call .

Today is day one .

will you join me ?



Patricia