OOO there's plenty of hope Depressin is not a good friend to have, it brings along with it anxiety, lies etc etc. Best to stick to hope in my opinion, there are days when things seem black, but the light will ALWAYS penetrate the darkness, even a tiny pinprick of light will flood the dark. You won't see a tiny pinprick of dark flooding the light ..... it's within you that light and you will see and feel it, just keep searching. Those good memories are just behind the bad, so pull em out, blow the dust off and go make some more so they pile up . I've been there sweetie, I still go there, but each time you DO get stronger and you learn to fight that damned black cloud. Take care and keep reaching out. Huggies, Ophelia xxx