For about 2 years (I last did it quite a while ago now) I used to be in small community of flight simulation enthusiasts. It was all online but we used a thing called Teamspeak to communicate and would fly in a server on Microsoft Flight Simulator.
We were all very freindly, and some of the runners of it actually had proper job titles, like CEO and Administrator etc...
Well anyway, we were all good. I was on particularly good terms with Paul Taylor - the owner (and CEO) of Gatwick Virtual Airport (
http://www.gatwick-atc.com/ - shut down now) and I would tell him small bits like how I was bullied at school (never in depth) and he was a real genuinely nice bloke.
I got sent this by a freind on MSN today (I met him through GVA 9 Gatwick Virutal Airport (renamed to Gatwick Virtual ATC) :
http://www.kent.police.uk/News/Lates...sentenced.html
I feel really shocked, and physically sick. I'm 15, and when I joined I was 13. He's seen pictures of me at that age and below. Who knows if he had any of me in his collection. He also knew my address.
Blah. It makes me want to be sick just writing this, and when I think of it, probably because im so shocked. I just do not know how to react.
I also have another worry, my dad has been waking up with specs of blood on his pillow. He went to see the doctor and the sent him to hospital for some reason. My dad wont tell me anything and when I ask him about it he goes quiet. All he will tell me is that he's been to hospital a few times - and that was only when i asked.
He has also been feeling really rough and on the news someone had exactly the same - blood specs on her pillow. She went to see the doctor and a while later, got diagnosed with lung cancer.
I am really worried for him. Tears come to my eyes when i think about it. I know everyone will think im just thinking the worse, but everything's pointing to this!!!
I havent self harmed for two months, I'm worried that I might not get to the third. Next week I am going to ask him straight up what the **** is going on ?
Sorryfor the rant.