We ALL need a little help--

Hey Babysteps-- I think it is possible you have some sort of fixation on ladies' butts if you think about them all the time, minus the other aspects of a relationship. I think they'd call this a fettish, but I'm not sure how far your's really goes.
Are you trying for real relationships at all, or solely focused on women who exist only in your mind? Perhaps the anime thing is related to low self esteem that needs to be worked on? Just wondering. Either way, anything that gets in the way of real relationships I'd say is something to bring up with your therapist and/or Pdoc.
-sam