God, do I really deserve this? I may have just barely got the 3.0 in my B.S in accounting, but does that really mean I am only suited for unskilled labor? I'm so god damn depressed and feel so god damn helpless I can't stand it. I really don't know how to find a job and be successful enough in interviews to get people to like me enough to hire me. I feel totally blind trying to navigate all this bull as someone who still feels like a student, and no adult I know can help me. I have zero guidance and my family has no contacts with anyone in anything that could lead me to a job. I mean in interviews I don't feel like I can really talk about how I am experienced I am and how I'm a perfect candidate when my experience is limited to a 6 week internship. I just have no idea what the **** I am doing, and am so mad and disappointed that I'm reduced to retail when I thought my education would have made me better than this...That I could have at least been a secretary and file paper all day. I'm apparently not even good enough for that. I am totally hating my life right now. My retail job is taking up all my job hunting time this week, which infuriates me cause no ****ing person appreciates me and my apparent "attitude" cause apparently I have a bad attitude when it comes to not receiving breaks when I work 9 hours shifts. Seriously? After I ASKED if I could go on break, and insisted I be given one, but assuring I wouldn't take the whole 30 minutes, I overheard a manager-figurehead loudly complaining about how I have a bad attitude about breaks and how pitiful it is that I haven't made friends even though I've been there for 3 months. You know, I try to be helpful and do good god damn work, and I was having a really good day that day! Showed up 10 minutes early at 6:50am, hit the ground running, made my coworker super happy. But this woman who I don't even work with or under got pissed off about my attitude? Or something? and apparently its pathetic that I'd rather keep to myself at work and mind my own business? [....good thing I keep to myself, cause forbid people like her know even more about me to criticize]. Kill me. Just kill me. Do I really deserve this? Really? I can't stand my life right now. I really can't. I feel totally powerless, over worked, and under appreciated. Someone put me out of my misery. I'm so depressed. I don't know what to do anymore. I go through phone books and send out my resume and cover letters, I go through the newspaper, I go look at online career sites, I talk with career services at my college, but nothing. 8 months of unemployment. I am a terrible burden on my family. I wish they could be proud of me, I hate being such a disappointment and a financial burden. I don't know. I need to stop crying.