to be honest part of me feels the need to just walk away from therapy...its like its lost its magic...i cant explain nor can i explain it to myself....what do i want to walk away from?....its like i've forgotten all the good feelings I get and now it feels like T and I are just cardboard cutouts...Like T is my mother that i need to escape from....dont tell me thats not true because i knOw it is....oh god i think i have been taken over..it won't let me go....its controlling my thinking...its beating me doqn