I have been letting the answering machine pick up all my calls. I have no desire to talk to my Mom. She brings so many bad things out in me. Let me rephrase that, When I talk to her I fall into old programing so easily. I always feel miserable afterward.

I am proud of myself though. She e-mailed me asking if it would be all right for them to come over at the end of the month. I told her no. I wasn't it a metal health position to see her right now. I am working on to much and don't want it to be interfered with.

Zen

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Fall down seven times, get up eight--Buddhist Qoute