I have never come to this area before, but as one of my sisters at this very moment is bleeding out from a life time of alcohol. She is only 47.

Life has been horrible and this is the way this sister chose to deal with the past pain. Pain she could never face, would'nt allow herself to feel the ugliness.

They say she has 48 hours left and that family should come now...

There are many ignorant issues that allow us not to be there to say our finally goodbyes. But of we 4 sisters - She Knows we love her and one another.

The past 6 years - as a miracle - she lived this long.
Even doctors were amazed.

We have all shared a love, yet were never allowed to share as children. Even now - it is an enstranged relationship due to trust.

The pain of not knowing each other - the pain to know what we could have, should have had shared all thsee years together. Never allowed to be. Because of She, (the mother) who Still remains - in denial.

Still in denial of what we became because of what she'd done. The chosen acts of dumbness to brought our this far. Yet, She remains - in denial.

After 20 years later - we came together, only to now see one of us about to pass. We had only 4 years to try to bond - but there was an awful difficult - The strangness between us because of years lost, that never did exist, and still now will never come.

I'm not sure what I feel. My sister has had so many close calls - But this seems the last.

I write not only in saddness but in Anger for the life time were we forced to be kept apart from on another. Yet She remains - in Denial.