my thanks to all for your kind and wise advice. It is so difficult for me to feel good about myself when my entire life has been about taking care of others. First as a mom, a nurse, a daughter and now I feel I have no purpose left. I know that my daughter has the right to live her life unencumbered by her mom. I just don't have the energy to try and make a new life for myself. Once I have my own place, then what? I feel like alice tumbling down the rabbit hole. I am afraid of where I will land.....if ever. I am trying to simply "stay in the day". Thanks again for the advice and kind words. Toni