For years now, I've been getting these frightening, uncontrollable episodes where I visualize something horrible happening. I call them daymares.

They are always connected to what is happening or my surroundings at the moment. So it's different from PTSD where people have flashbacks.

I never know when I will get hem, but there are certain particular things that trigger me. One is paper shredders. When I see one being used I picture the person's hand going through it. When I have to use one I picture my hand going through it. Also, paper triggers me too. Whenever someone is waving a paper around or holding it near my face I get a daymare of the paper going across my eyeball and giving me a papercut there. Also, in my old school, girls would often put their pen in one of the button holes of their collar. I would get a daymare of them walking in the hallway, tripping, falling, causing the pen to go right through their neck.

I am 18 and still do not drive because of this. While practicing driving, I would see myself running over people or getting into accidents in my daymares. My parents have been bugging me about getting my license, but I have been avoiding it due to this. I feel like I am a danger to myself and others behind the wheel.Sometimes, these daymares are scary enough to stop me in my tracks. Behind the wheel this can be fatal.

Another detail, sometimes i hear screaming in accompianment with the daymare. It is always a woman, not sure if it's me or not.

I have talked to my Ts about this and it puzzled them. I would really appreciate some feedback on this. Maybe someone here or someone they know has had similar experiences? Or ways of coping with this?