Hi mixedup,
I'm not sure if I've experienced this myself, but earlier on in T I used to space out sessions by weeks, because of how deep the sessions would go and I was scared of the attention placed on me. I thought it was too good to last, so I'd stop going to make sure T would still care about me and be concerned when I returned.
Dunno....I'm a weird one

it makes sense that you want to stay away from a place that must stir up such hard emotions. All I can say is do what you need for yourself - you know yourself better than anyone. But stay strong. It's so worth it in the long run.

Take care