(((((Dream))))) Im sorry I am coming to your thread late There is so much here and it is all so very powerful. I could read it over and over. I am in awe at the ability of your little parts to sepress themselves and how your adult self allows it. Your right, it is a gift. What struck me, through your anger at T and how you are "all" processing it is the love and caring your little parts have for your adult self. They want to protect you and hold your feelings, maybe until you are ready to feel comfortable expressing them as your adult self? And the respect you have for your little selves. Allowing them their expression without (too much?)judgement or shame.

You are and your T truly sound like a perfect fit. She understands how much meaning there is in your letters to her, line by line, feeling by feeling. That she wants you and she to go deeper with each feeling. She isnt afraid.

I love that she is so unafraid that she is willing to look within herself this way about why she said what she did, and the powerful effect it had on you. Her remarks had a powerful effect on me! In a way, her remarks were a way for some of those feelings to come to the surface in your letters, as painful and self-hating as they were, they are your feelings and Im sure they are deep and affect your profoundly.

You are doing such amazing work with T. I am glad you are able to see her twice/week to process better. Wow