I'm sorry I haven't been contributing here lately. My brain is just in a fog and it is hard to think of what to say. Plus I've been depressed and staying in bed alot. But please know that I care a great deal about all you guys and hope to be back soon.

I went to DBSA group for the fourth time and actually spoke! I was so SCARED. My t and I practiced what I would say and he said it would be the first step in trusting people. What I said was that it was really hard for me to talk and to trust because I'd been hurt before (I didn't say abused, but they seemed like they knew what I meant.)

It also came up that I had no irl friends.

The goup was very supportive and several people said--you have friends now, US!

I still feel vulnerable but my trust in people did go up a notch.