Hi Irish,

Good vent letter, hope you feel better ! ! !

Do you have goals set for yourself since venting? It looks as though you have half the battle won, by acknowledging there is a problem, and you realize that, but just wondered where you are going with it.
It is good to vent, but goal setting is very important, and it seems as though you may be searching for answers to your situation. Perhaps not too, as you seem very aware the problem, and well in touch with yourself. And am curious where you are headed with this?
Resectfully,

SongBird