She's been trying really hard to throw me into self-exploration. Nothing subtle about that at all. And I can't blame her for not wanting to give me lables, with the way that I obsess about stuff like that, and quizzes, and I'm really good at filling a role if it's assigned to me. She's also told me that BPD, PTSD, and dissociative disorders are all pretty close.

You know, I'm glad to have found someone who looks at all the underlying stuff. It's been a year and a half since I've had very bad depression, and that's where past therapists all decided that was good enough. But it wasn't - I didn't know why, but I still wasn't ok. The last one went so far as to tell me that I had a medical problem (SAD), not a psychological problem. But it's never that simple. It's just so nice now to have someone who sees that.