Angel always has night terrors, but today it was a little different.
I'm still terrified...and I'm usually the one that has to deal with Angel's attacks.
I didn't even know I was asleep... It felt like I was at my old house...with my father...he was hitting me again...I don't remember a lot back then because Angel was usually the one out when I was being abused...
I remember kinda waking up...she was out and was crying in the bf's arms...but it still felt like we were there...it was terrifying...when I came out, I was so dissociated I couldn't see..everything looked really fuzzy and blurred...I felt really detached and floaty...my bf calmed us down a lot though, so we took a shower to calm down...I do feel better now, but I'm still pretty freaked out...I don't remember the last time the flash backs got this bad...I have them almost constantly, but...I couldn't even feel my body or anything...I don't usually get this bothered...I'm always the one calming everyone else down, but this really got to me.
I think it's because it's the holidays...something horrible always happened around/during the holidays.
Anyways...thanks for listening...still working on getting a T...

-Shadow.