I feel self hatred all the time as well. I always feel like no matter what I do, it isn't good enough and that I always do something wrong. I want to be someone people enjoy being around, ya know? Just put on that smile and pretend there's not a care in the world. Not much of a drinker, however; I like to drink with friends on the weekends cause its a way of 'getting away' (plus I'm more chatty ).

I don't think having a glass of wine is a bad thing, but you also don't want it to be a clutch, something you need every time you are out with friends. Not sure how I can really help in any way, but keep us informed about how it goes on Monday.