Well, one year ago today I was working a dream job. Involved in a serious relationship with a woman I was almost sure would be my future wife. Confident, happy, in control of my life (for the most part), and proud to be who I was. I had no problems paying rent, went out on a somewhat normal basis, etc.

Now, I'm unemployed, single after a painful breakup. I've lost all sense of self confidence or pride, nowhere near happy and my life is spiraling out of control. I'm going broke as I have no income and bills to pay still, and haven't been out for anything other than groceries and job interviews in a long time.

Basically, everything is the complete opposite of what it was just a short year ago. Not entirely sure how I let myself get here and definately not sure of how to get out of it. Like I said, I'm looking for a therapist, but the one I've met with so far I felt like I was intellectually superior to and it made it feel wierd to me. I hope I can find one soon because the deeper I sink the more issues from the past float to the top.

Thanks for putting up with me guys, I know I talk myself in circles sometimes but it really helps me to get this out.