I think i'm allergic to one of my prescriptions, Paxil. Everything was going fine until they changed the pill. It went from a white pill to a pink one. I took it for a week and then got an awful rash on my arms. It went away when i quit taking my pills for a day or 2. Of course, it didn't take long for me to begin feeling bad again. So, I took my meds again today. Now i'm itchy everywhere.

I also began taking Abilify a month or 2 ago. I told my counselor yesterday I thought i was allergic to the Abilify suddenly. She didn't seem to think so. It hit me yesterday the changed Paxil could be the problem.

It didn't hit me it could be the Paxil until last night. So i 'm telling my counselor tomorrow. But the thing is, I'm soooo TIRED of this. We've been trying for a few years to find prescrips i can take. It seems so unfair to find something that works and then it suddenly stops working or I get some stupid reaction to it. Unfair because I get a taste of feeling better (even if it's just a little) to not being able to take my meds and feeling like crap again.

I'm so sick of playing pick a pill. I can't function on my own. But i'm getting to the point where I think I've tried just about everything. I've been on Paxil, Lexapro, Wellbutrin, Prozac, and about 4 others i can't think of right now. I was either allergic or they did nothing for me.

I don't know what i'm going to do. I have a part time job. I need a full time job if i can find one. But i can barely force myself to work my part time job. If i can't find a med that works, I don't know what i'm going to do.

I just got an appointment with social security to apply for disability. That process takes a while and i'm expecting to not be accepted and having to appeal it. I just don't know what i'm going to do anymore. I know that if i'm not on meds, I'm probably not going to be functioning well. It was pretty bad when i was off meds before for 6 or so months. I don't want to go back to that....