My week of being on a super high dose of hormones was wonderful. I took my pill and 2 Advil every 6 hours and I felt like I was "normal" again. Besides getting a little moony over the hubby, I was good. lol

Had the ultrasound and blood work done. Doc should get the results today sometime. I've been back to one pill a day now for over a week and each day is worse. All the old problems are back.

I finally broke down and called the doctor's office last Friday (only took me 2 days after the techs who took my blood told me to call her "sometime" regarding my glucose resistance test - they didn't finish it because my blood sugar was already "a little high"). Then I spent the rest of the day talking myself out of a breakdown when the recptionist told me the doctor wasn't in on Fridays. Stupid, stupid, stupid! Another weekend wasted.

So I called the doc's office this morning. Receptionist said she would pull my chart and have the nurse give me a call back. That was at 9:30. I know they're busy...and I'm sure they will give me a call back, but the waiting is miserable. Having a popular doctor stinks sometimes. I don't want to be obnoxious but this is getting ridiculous. I don't even want to think about how I will make it to the 25th...or what it will be like for the "placebo" week.

I want to go outside! I want to go with hubby to sign his contract for his new asst. coaching position tomorrow! I want to walk out and play with my dog. All I can do is lay in bed or the bathtub and watch the minutes tick by.

It's my own darn fault this is happening. I understand that and am trying to change what I can control. Not seeing an end in sight.

I'm tired. I'm sick, and most of all, I am scared. I keep playing out worst case scenarios in my head. (I always say, prepare for the worst, hope for the best) When I am not worrying about that, I worry about where the money is going to come from to "fix" me. (I like to shake things up a little...vary my routine...lol)

Probably not the best week to start my diet. lol