Hey Mary Alice,
Thanks for the uber fast response, and I must say that I am very comforted in the fact that someone has gone through almost the exact same thing I'm going through. I agree with you that I need to tell her, but it's just hard to walk in there & go, "by the way, I like to cut myself with razors." I just saw her earlier today, and was so tempted, but she insisted talking about my mother the whole session and I saw so way to transition to my confession. I'm glad to know that just because of some cuts she can't ship me off. I've actually been seriously thinking about going to inpatient, but admit that I am terrified of going at the same time. I'd like to think it'd help me, but I suppose I'm afraid of what I might come out of there as and the subsequent stigma associated with being commited. I know these are petty reasons for not seeking treatment, but at the same time, I guess I'm just afraid that I'm nothing more than some whiny brat and will be dismissed as such. I just want the pain to end, and I'm getting more and more desperate and closer to the end of my rope. I've actually admitted to myself lately that I've given up, and it almost seems that I dont want to get better anymore. I am interested in knowing if you thought that the hospital stay actually helped you any, and whether it would be worthwhile to think about it seriously. Thanks again, and I'll be sure to keep you updated. I'm so glad I found this place!

---Kelly