(((((Alongways)))))) talk away. Sometimes I know I have to talk in circles until I find a chink in my logik and can break out. Besides, you can have a lot of advice here that might speed up the process. I think that what happened to you was really a good example of how fast life can change both with or without the help of this disease. What is certain is that alone, unsupported and depressed, you are having problems handling this. so don't worry about talking in circles. that's why we're here. Huggggs and I hope the clouds thin soon.