How brave to be doing what you are doing. I don't know all your particulars, how long you have been sober. I do know that sometimes even though we have much to offer from our own life experiences, have wells and wells of compassion and kindness to offer the distressed and yes, angry, hopeless others out there floundering and caught up on the merrygoround named denial, sometimes it just might prove a wiser move to step back a bit...if you only have less than a year of sobriety, days like this, where the combative denials and ignorance set off multiple triggers, take you to that place where the old tapes start rewinding....this isn't good, for you, not safe at all. for you. I know you want to help others, have a need to spread the word that effective treatment and help is there, but perhaps it isn't time yet. I only say this if you do not have at least one full year of therapy, AA, NA and a good sponsor under your belt. That's all, I'm not trying to criticize you in any way. I do know I felt exactly the same way after my best dearest friend died, I so wanted to get involved in hospice and being there for families undergoing death, dying issues.... and I was honestly a bit dismayed and yeah, ticked off, when they refused to let me become a member of the hospice team....for the rule was...you can't be a part of a team if you haven't enough time, space and distance from your own grief. It is just common sense, and a good policy. Most hospice organizations want helpers who have put time and therapy between grieving and actually going out to help other grievers. So. that's all, again, I don't mean to sound at all judgemental, but just want you to honestly put yourself first, your recovery first, gain all the strength and wisdom that is so hard to attain once having been lost in the addiction maze...the wandering, hopeless despair that paralyzed you is so hard to see in another equally hurting soul..... just make sure you have taken good care of you first, have spent a goodly amount of time in program...then and only then can you truly be the calm, reasonable voice in the wilderness that will not set your own wolves howling. brightest blessings and all the very very best to you, I so admire and respect you.