Hi! I'm not sure were to start. I am a mother of an abusive child. I adopted my son in 99' after haivng him for 2 years in foster care. We knew he had some problems but we adoptedhim any way because we love him. For 2 years after the adoption everything was going good with him. Then the violence started again. It has gotten so bad that he has tried to kill me numerous times. He spent 8 months in a RTF(residential treatment facility). When he came home he wasn't even home a month and attack his teachers, a guidance counsleor and the priciple at school and then attacked me on the way home. Since then i have had to press abuse charges against him and he is now in the custidy of juvenille probation. At the first hearing he bragged to another kid about how many times he has tried to kill me. He has sent me to the hospital once because he hurt me so bad that I couldn't move my arms. Right now I'm afraid of what he is going to do when he gets out. He really does want me dead. They told me I don't have to take him home if I am still afraid of him and we still have a ways to go before that is even considered but how do I say no if it comes to that? I have already lost one child and now I am losing another. I am so torn up with my love for him and being afraid of him. Thank you to anyone who listens. I have to go now.