A_Long_ways, go ahead - write your two (three? four?) pages. If you think it's too long, serialize it into several posts. As Lonegael said, don't worry about continuity.

This is the kind of exercise that could prepare you to make the best use of a therapist once you find one. And, if circumstances prohibit a therapist, working out your thoughts may give you the kind of insights that will bear new hope.