I am so sorry, you are having such a hard time getting the help you need. I have never been in the place you are at now..

I wish I knew how to help you.. I hae watched how badly you suffer and want to help but I have no clue how to help you

Please try to keep safe and if you can keep us posted on how you are doing ok.

safe hugs if it is ok..

((((((((((((( hugs to you ))))))))))))))))))))))