It's amazing what will happen when you take yourself out of a poisonous environment. So much has changed since I left. My alters went back into hiding, my schizo effects are gone, I generally feel happier and are at peace with the world. I don't hate people any more and all the anger building up in me is gone. I was ready to do some serious injury to my ex after all I had been through because of him. But I didn't and now I'm glad I didn't.

He left some pretty nasty scars behind. Emotional scars that is... My selof confidence is gone. Vanished. Before I met the guy I was very confident. I knew I was beautiful and I knew how great of a person I was. Now... I know I'm beautiful technically but I feel like a monster because of him. I can't even stand to look people in the face still... Anyways, besides just a few small things, the sanity score seems to think leaving my husband was a GREAT idea . I left 2 months ago btw...

Anyways, so here

Todays results...
Score 69
General Coping 54 Life Events 38 Depression 28 Anxiety 12 Phobias 42 Self-Esteem 75 Eating Disorders 30 Schizophrenia 25 Dissociation 0 Mania 5 Sexual Issues 19 Relationship Issues 0 Alcohol 8 Drugs 17 Physical Issues 17 Smoking Issues 100 Gambling Issues 0 Technology Issues 0 Obsessions/Compulsions 13 Posttraumatic Stress 17 Borderline Traits 4

My first sanity score in June was 160 and eventually shot up to 214 and stayed steady in the 200s. The last quiz I took was about 2 weeks before I left my husband and my score was 208.

It's incredible what just an environment can do to your mind. Even the environment I am staying at now is not a very good one (better than with my husband though) and I can see this environment already taking a negative toll on me. Imagine when it's just me and my daughter happy and peaceful! My score might just be a 0

Anyways, sorry for rambling so much I'm just really happy my score dropped so dramatically!!!

To my pc friends