Those feelings of "acceptance" is what led up to my hospital visit. Every night when I go to sleep, I still pray not to wake up each morning, and darn if I still do. [sigh]

I have heard bad things about klonopin, and that may account for the disassociation you are experiencing. The prozac worked for quite awhile with me, but I started getting too used to it and the good effects wore off. Before I switched, I was on 40mg. I have tried Zoloft, Paxil, Buspar, Celexa, and a few other ones. The problem is that all of those are what they call SSRIs and I needed something that was definitely in a diff category and more geared towards depression/anxiety.

I try not to bother my T either, but I also know that he is my life line and without contact with him, I have major anxiety and paranoid attacks - hence the daily emails back and forth.

No need to feel desperate anymore.......I'll keep you company and everyone on here is really terrific and helpful. I'll start digging around tomorrow night and look for some links for you.

Talk to you soon, Kelly.

Mary Alice