Hi, I haven't ever posted on this part of the site before but I just started SI'ing in May. I was doing it pretty often then I stopped for about a month then relapsed again on Sunday night. I have only told my t and my psych about this. I really want to tell my best friend but I don't know how she will react. It was hard enough on her to deal with certain aspects of my depression and to throw cutting in the mix I'm afraid might freak her out...It's just that I feel like I need some support...someone to talk to when I feel like SI'ing so I can talk my way past it or something...I don't want to have to call my t everytime I feel like doing it and I'm trying to stop so I may not need her but what if I do. I'm going thru some hard times and that's when I tend to do it...I'm just afraid that if I tell her she will freak out and tell one of our other friends which is an older friend who will definetly tell my mom...which is not a good thing. I know it would be good to have support but then I don't want to freak her out and put a heavy load on her. Plus how do you explain to her about SI"ing? I just don' t know what to do? Any one else have a problem with telling their friends or should I just suck it up and tell her?...I'm just scared!