I"m afraid I am losing it all. Things are not going well with hubby and I at all.He is staring T too . He is getting angry with me , and o/c about finances also. I cant be perfect. The way he wants me to be. Hes got unrealistic expectations of me too. I am not getting it together quick enough for him since the hospital. I am scared cause I am feeling myself going down the same road I was before the hospital now. Depresion is getting worse. And I ohh gosh Ihate saying this , but the suicidal feelings are coming back. PLEASE DO NOT CALL ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am trusting all of you on this ok? I cant bear to be taken in like that again. Guys I am so scared I dont know what to do to make him happy without losing everything I have tried to work on for myself these past few months. And i am sure I stil love him cause if I didnt it wouldnt hurt so bad right? What do I do? How can I make this better? "m losing all if it again . I cant go thru that again.I"m sorry I just needed to get this out .

Beth