((((A_Long_ways))))

Thank you for posting and taking the chance to reach out. We are hearing you and we are listening. You have been through a lot in just a short time. Please continue to search for the therapist as that will really help you. Sometimes it takes a while to find the one you can relate to but it will happen if you stay persistant.

I am sorry you were told to "just get over it" or "try harder". I have heard those exact words many times and to hear those words makes it even worse. If you could just get over it you would have done that before you started feeling so bad.

Trying harder just really gets me. When it is all you can do to get out of bed and do what you need to do, that is trying. You are not just letting the depression swallow you. You came here and you reached out. That is a first step and a very good one.

Sometimes other people have no idea what we feel. They have not walked in our shoes and they have not tried what you have tried. Sometimes you have to take it with a grain of salt because they do not know what it is like.

With that said, you also have to push yourself sometimes as hard as it is. I know, I have to push myself everyday. Life can change in an instant and what we had can be gone. But there is another instant, another chance. As long as we are breathing there is another day to reach for what we dream.

I am sorry you lost your girlfriend. And your job. I know it is tough out there. Especially when you are used to making ends meet and then all of a sudden it is gone. But keep reaching and fighting. You are worth it. Being at the bottom, the only way to go is up.

Please keep posting and letting us know how things go. We are here and we care. And if you need to write go ahead. For me, writing is what I know. I have written some really long post so do not be afraid to write. We will listen. Please do something kind for you. You are worth it.

Sending gentle hugs.

dps