|
There is something seriously wrong about me. I am so ashamed to talk about it.
For the past several months, I’ve been taking the most part of my nighttime meds in the morning and sleeping all afternoon, 5 days a week.
I wake up take more meds and a few hours I am asleep again until I get up around 3am. Sometimes I do stuff in the morning, like errands & once a week a movie, and sometimes I make it to the gym.
Today the meds didn’t work and I didn’t sleep. But I lay there too lethargic to do anything except obsess and ruminate.
I think of stuff to do, like volunteer work, taking classes, reading a book… But I never follow through and do them.
A big part that keeps me stuck is my germ phobia and social anxiety and a huge part of it is lack of motivation and lack of ambition.
Why am I living like this and why can’t I stop?????? How can I stop?????
I am so ashamed. Please don’t judge me harshly.
__________________
I love your faults because they are part of you and I love you. --my BFF
[center][b][color=#92d050][font=Verdana]
|