I just wanted to add a little about last night.

I had a pretty good time considering, the dinner was lovely and the company as well. They are great people and would move heaven and earth to see me happy again.

Kept the 'sad' conversation to a minimum. and just talked about what fun we used to have together (we had all worked together where Mark works - which is where we all met).

I came home and the one person that I am in close contact with at Mark's work called (it was their work christmas function last night).. He just wanted to make sure I was alright. He had told Mark that he knew what was going on, Mark did know that Tom was helping me and making sure I was ok.... Mark had asked Tom last night to call me later and just see if I was alright. How does he have the right to still care that much to ask someone to make sure I'm ok?

No sense to it all - just plain wierd ths whole thing.

I am going to join some sort of club/gym/yoga something just to wden my circle of friends and also to make me feel human again. Hard around this time of the year as everyone is finishing up until the new year..