Thanks a lot for your comforting words....yeah, I'm glad you were here to listen. It's good to feel like some people understand a little and are there to help. Yeah, I know what you are saying about the eating, and I realized that it is out of caring that my mom probably said the same things...I don't know why I took it so personally this time, but you're right, I shouldn't just switch to another unhealthy habit to drown the feelings, its good to have those other creative outlets that you talked about.

Denial is hard too, and I feel like I have been in denial for a long time. It's still hard to acknowledge that I was sexually assaulted four years ago...even when I was having flashbacks, and now the flashbacks are gone, but I still avoid even thinking about it...I know it happened, and I know I am depressed now, but I still don't like to think about these aspects of my life so much, is that really so bad? I mean, yeah I know I need to confront my own issues, and that trying to understand more about the feelings and the depression will probably help me a lot more in the long run, but its just so confusing. One day at a time I guess... thanks for being there.