(((((((Berries)))))))) Hmmmmm. It sounds like you are depressed. Not much news, eh? I getinto the wrong rythym sometimes when it comes to taking my meds, then i end up like you do. Frustrating. Easy dear. ruminating just makes it easier for depression to convince you that there is something fundamentally wrong with you besides him. There's not, unless you're talking the phobias. sleep problems are way common. Huggs and good evening.