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Thank you for sharing with us. I do not know what it is that is going on there. But I do know that I have a part called baby who only can talk in baby talk. She cries and says mama and dada. She will calm down with someone singing and she starts to try to humm what is being sung. Then she will fall asleep.

Lastnight I was trying to go to sleep and someone came out and started to cry wanting the wady and I could not calm her down or get her to stop for a very long time. She finally cried herself to sleep. I know who she is but she could not be calmed as she was terrified. She does not have the understanding of time. She still thinks she is back in time and does not understand we are in the now.

I did not have co-consciousness of those within and still do not with many even though I have been told they are there. I still lose so much time and am unsure what is taking place during those times. But with those I do know are there and can hear them and sometimes see as I am afloat watching I do know what they say or do.

It is odd and feels strange. And sometimes I am so afraid of what someone would think if they could hear me in my apartment. I know they are real and I know they are there. The having co-consciousness helps so much to at least know what is going on even if I cannot comfort them at times. It at least takes away the questions that used to fill me everyday.

I have been told that there are those that have been out playing on the floor and acting the exact age they are. I really have a hard time with this as I cannot understand. I do not understand how they can do things that I know I cannot do. But I know they are there and what they need is to be heard and accepted.

I know they hold emotions and memories that I was unable to have. And they helped me survive what was happening. It is because of them I am still in existence today. I thank them for that. And for holding those parts of me that I was never allowed to be.

I do not know if I have said anything that makes sense or that you were asking. I know for me, sometimes I can hear them and sometimes I do not know they have been there. But I am working on that everyday to become aware of them.

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps