((((gracieme))))

You are doing what you can do. And that is okay. I am so sorry that you were assulted four years ago. I do understand. I have been there growing up and just a few months ago. I know what you are feeling. It is important to talk to someone about what happened. It is by no means easy but for your own self it would help you to release what you are holding within.

I know it is not something we want to talk about. We would rather forget and let it go but truth is it will go away. Eventually it will creap back up until you can deal with what you are feeling. It will seep through everyday things and make it self known whether we want it to or not.

I tried for a long time to hide it and push it back everytime it came back. I tried to say I can deal with this, I do not need to talk about it. But honestly until I did it kept coming back. Being asulted is not easy. It is wrong. It is a violation of you.

You do deserve to be heard. You do deserve to heal. I know that a few years ago, I posted about being assulted and the feelings I was carrying. If someone had not reached out to me here I would not have had the courage to talk about it. Just the validation of what I was feeling and the fact that someone heard me and cared enough to reach out meant more than I can tell you.

Taking one day at a time is really the only way we can do it. For reaching behind can send us back where we are not completely ready to go. And reaching too far ahead can cause lots of anxiety for we are not there yet. Staying in the moment and in the present is where we can find ourselves and deal with each thing that comes.

You are not alone. There are many here that know what it is like. Know that you are not alone and that we are here listening and hearing what you are saying. We do care very much.

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. If you need to talk please feel free to PM me. Thinking of you.

dps